I have had it. So I am MAKING myself publicly vow to get to my goals.
What am I talking about?
My weight :(
That's right. My biggest struggle, my biggest fear and my biggest sore spot.
I was always the trim athletic figured girl. Until I got married and started having kids. And sure kids are some excuse. But really? No.
Not for me anyways.
The last 6 years of my life I have spent ballooning and struggling. Yes, I have had 3 beautiful babies and 4 miscarriages in 5 years. So I give myself some credit. My body has been through a ton!
But after seeing pictures of me from my grandma's funeral (bottom picture) I realized I look worse than I thought and I broke into tears. Sure at that time my baby was 7 weeks old. BUT, even at that I was already to my prepreggo weight and had been since the day i left the hospital. (I only gained 13lbs). So that just shows you how over weight I was to begin with. :/
But I know, that if I can get my butt in gear and reach my goals I will be a better mom, wife, sister, friend.. and just feel so much happier. I will tell you honestly, I don't get depressed. I am a pretty happy go lucky gal who takes things in stride as they come along. But my weight is one thing that does get me depressed.
I know I can do this! Last year my sis in law was getting married and I was so determined to not be a size 16 at her wedding! And guess what- with 2-3 workouts a day and eating good I lost 25lbs in 3 1/2 months. I was almost into a comfortable size 12!
Now I am the same weight as then, but a super tight size 12 :) but things look a LOT different from my last pregnancy. Ewwww.
So here I am, publicly admitting to all of you how much I hate my body.
And making my words into writing that by December this year- that is 6 months from now- I will have lost the 30 lbs I need to lose.
So you will see me posting about my progressions, my falls, my frustrations and my triumphs. Feel free to skip these posts! LOL
But maybe with a little extra pressure I can get there faster. I am going to make myself take monthly pictures so I can see the changes. I am keeping a food journal and I am working out EVERYDAY! (ok, at least 6 days a week).
Feel free to leave me advice and tips and what has worked for you!
Ok, enough ranting. Just so we are up to speed, I started this serious calorie counting, working out plan Monday.
What am I talking about?
My weight :(
That's right. My biggest struggle, my biggest fear and my biggest sore spot.
I was always the trim athletic figured girl. Until I got married and started having kids. And sure kids are some excuse. But really? No.
Not for me anyways.
The last 6 years of my life I have spent ballooning and struggling. Yes, I have had 3 beautiful babies and 4 miscarriages in 5 years. So I give myself some credit. My body has been through a ton!
But after seeing pictures of me from my grandma's funeral (bottom picture) I realized I look worse than I thought and I broke into tears. Sure at that time my baby was 7 weeks old. BUT, even at that I was already to my prepreggo weight and had been since the day i left the hospital. (I only gained 13lbs). So that just shows you how over weight I was to begin with. :/
But I know, that if I can get my butt in gear and reach my goals I will be a better mom, wife, sister, friend.. and just feel so much happier. I will tell you honestly, I don't get depressed. I am a pretty happy go lucky gal who takes things in stride as they come along. But my weight is one thing that does get me depressed.
I know I can do this! Last year my sis in law was getting married and I was so determined to not be a size 16 at her wedding! And guess what- with 2-3 workouts a day and eating good I lost 25lbs in 3 1/2 months. I was almost into a comfortable size 12!
Now I am the same weight as then, but a super tight size 12 :) but things look a LOT different from my last pregnancy. Ewwww.
So here I am, publicly admitting to all of you how much I hate my body.
And making my words into writing that by December this year- that is 6 months from now- I will have lost the 30 lbs I need to lose.
So you will see me posting about my progressions, my falls, my frustrations and my triumphs. Feel free to skip these posts! LOL
But maybe with a little extra pressure I can get there faster. I am going to make myself take monthly pictures so I can see the changes. I am keeping a food journal and I am working out EVERYDAY! (ok, at least 6 days a week).
Feel free to leave me advice and tips and what has worked for you!
Ok, enough ranting. Just so we are up to speed, I started this serious calorie counting, working out plan Monday.
10 comments:
My tip to feeling better about your body would be: NEVER stand next to Kesia in a family picture! That should help a lot! ;o) Good luck! I will be in your shoes in just a few more weeks!
I think you look really good. Especially considering all of the crap your body had been through in the last few years. Jason and I were talking about this very thing last night. It seems like curvy is out and bone thin is in. Us curvy girls need to make a come back. I think you are a HOT MOMMA!!!!
Okay, absolutely gorgeous, beautiful girl! I had the exact same thought that your first comment had! But, I wasn't going to say it. here are just some ideas I have seen recently...
http://www.moneysavingmom.com/money_saving_mom/
there is a post on there about losing weight on a budget.
and...
http://www.oneshetwoshe.com/2009/06/how-to-start-health-competition-with.html
Not that you want to start a health competition, but,
I have a friend that did do something like this and she lost weight and eats really good now too. A lot of it is eating at the right times, the right food, and you seem to have the exersizing down. I know you know all of this.
I don't know a lot about losing weight, I just seam to keep gaining it. You can do it! You are amazing at everything you do. Love you! (sorry this is long)
Hollie, I just love you!! I know you can do whatever you set your mind too, because you are amazing!! I also think you look fantastic, but I LOVE when someone is unhappy about their situation and they get off their butt and do something about it!! I know how hard it is, but I am with you on this weight loss journey, I want you to take our family pics in September, so you know what that means!! :)
Oh you all have made my day! Thanks so much for your words of encouragement. And boy you aren't kidding about standing next to Kesia! ROFL!
Thanks for the links Lisa!
And Tonii- that is when I want to do my family picts too!!! I wish we lived closer we could go workout together!
Well Holly hell. Honey I think you look great. I really, really do and the most important thing is that you are healthy. To loose all that weight, will you be harming your body? I would really consult a doctor, have a complete blood work up and make sure your cholesterol is ok.
You think its bad now. Shoot. I was a size 12 for many, many years and because the way our family is made, we all look this way and I was happy being a size 12. BUT, menopause starting hitting and 20 pounds came on fast! AND I WORK OUT MORE NOW THEN I EVER DID!!!!!!
Hang in their girlfriend.
You look amazing, and just had a baby. give yourself more credit than you do. The ability to give life to a child is far better than a great bod. Good luck.
I think you look beautiful, but its always good to exercise its good for your heart! If you ever want a partner to workout with I'm available :) I seem to get more motivated when I work out with people. Call me!
Hollie- I'm proud of you for putting this all in writing... that's not easy to do. I know how you feel... It's hard to not feel good about yourself. I have been feeling like that a lot lately, and have really been wanting to get stronger and in better shape, and guess what? I finally started this week! And, being totally serious, you have been a big part of me being able to do it! You have motivated me to work on myself for a change. That's not easy with 4 kids and a full schedule. You are doing great on your weight loss and exercising! Keep it up and hopefully we'll both meet our goals by December!!
Holl i looked at your blog finally! and i want you to know that i love you and i think you're beautiful. remember that we have very different bodies. i long for boobs and thighs! and as much as you may hate yours i wish i could have some too! i also have had zero children and i have ample time to dote over my appearance, i'm sure it won't last forever. I love you and i think you are gorgeous inside and out. Your kids will remember how you mothered them, not what size pants you wore. love you sis
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