36 weeks and counting down the days

If anyone had been able to remind me how miserable I was at the end of my pregnancy with Lillie, and make me realize this time would be even worse, would I still have gotten pregnant?

You bet!

I wouldn't change this for anything.

Sure I have become a very bitter, tired, out of patience, completely uncomfortable, bitter, whining, crying, emotional, mom. 

(Did I mention bitter?)

But still, every time Little B kicks or moves, no matter how much it hurts and makes me want to scream, I find myself smiling and reaching my hand down to feel him. Then I realize I am smiling, and why. And all the frustrations, and anger, and pain, and misery disappear. Even if only for a short while.

But that is long enough to remind me of how much I love being a mom. And how every second of this miserable pregnancy is worth it. And how in 3 weeks at the most from now, I will be holding this tiny (although I think he will be huge!) little bundle in my arms. And I will savor and treasure every second of him. 

And that my friends, is what keeps me going.

Even the other kiddos are getting restless waiting for him. Any kind of Doctor appointment I have is sure to be followed with "Are you going to get him out now?!?!!" But how do you make kids 6 yrs and younger realize it's another 21 days away? hee hee :) So I just say, Not yet! But he's getting closer!

And then they tell how big my tummy is and that he must be ready. To which I sigh and say, Tell me about it.

I am so glad I took advantage of feeling decent for 2 days last week. I finally feel ready if he does come early. Although the car seat is still in it's box unopened :) His clothes and mine and all the blankets and burp rags are washed. His little cradle is next to my bed. The swing is up and ready. 

Sure there is still a whole list of house spring cleaning I want to get done, but I do still have some time. It all depends on if I can move enough without the pain to do them :)

To help celebrate the end, like I do with all my pregnancies, I did my last "photo shoot" of this pregnancy. I started off with my remote at home, then asked my little sis to help me out with some outdoors.  I set up the camera settings, gave a quick lesson on focusing and handed it over to her. I am seriously  impressed! And so happy with the outcome. It was dark where we were, and we shot until there was almost no light coming through the trees. Which gave us some absolutely fantastically dramatic lighting, Which I am a complete sucker for!

 OUT TAKES:

 You should know, that when Kes and I get together, it can get pretty crazy! Even when I'm a tired big preggo :) 

Our signature move, even at 9 months pregnant! Not gonna lie, I was pretty proud of myself :)

Coming from miss model (Kesia), "Neck forward. Chin out. Chin down. No Hollie. Out and down. Like a Whooping Crane!" ROFL. And that ended up with this: (refer to the right hand picture)

My dedication to good pictures even had me hoisting myself up onto a 3 ft tall rock wall.

I'm sure you're all sick of the every 5 weeks maternity shots :) And glad this is the last! hee hee Guess that's what you get. After all, I am a photographer.  Just think of all the new baby pics that will be coming your way soon! Excited? I am!

So HAPPY 36 WEEKS to me!!!!!